Learning & growing in confidence

 

At The British Library in October 2026

This is me now, more resilient, not mourning the loss of the internal critic - how did he disappear after causing me decades of misery? - and learning to cope with ADHD. Yes, I think I got it and it explains why I am more positive. It was not just mental health, it's the way I am wired.

I am doing Level 2 counselling and hopefully I will post here again. I think I am the best version of me yet, or working towards it. 

Depression lies, I was up and down for so many years and now I don't understand how I let it diminish my life. I have anxiety under control, I feel more joyful and despite some setbacks involving people, I am very hopeful. 

I don't even mind the winter coming - this is a big thing. For years I thought I suffered from SAD.

I hope to post now and again. Watch this space.

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